I’ve become more concerned about my overall health lately. Not having medical or dental insurance has always required me to be cautious about things I do. But I’ve got to admit I’m not as proactive as I should be in those areas. My biggest issue as of late is that when I eat junk food it, for lack of a better term, fucks my world up. I actually feel physically ill when I eat some of the things I used to be able to pack in without a second thought or care. That sluggish bloat kicks in and I start to feel like a giant pile of goo with no energy.

My style of eating has always enabled me to stay trim, I don’t eat three big meals a day. I graze all day. It’s my prefrence, I don’t like feeling that “stuffed out full” after a meal and will only eat until I’m not hungry anymore. However, the things I’ve been eating aren’t exactaly good for me. I’m a constant soda drinker and have a penchant for easy snacks (aka junk snacks). Added to the fact that Large Tunamy boyfriend ‘s mom lives with us and she’s an AWESOME cook but she’s old school and everything is fried, re-fried, spicy and full of fat and grease. Suffice it to say this has been hell on my digestive system.

Unfortunatly she’s so proud of her cooking that if you don’t eat it she gets offended and even downright pissed off at you. Trying to communicate to her that I can’t eat homemade refried beans tortillas and red chili every night because although it’s delicious it makes me feel like hell is a moot point. There’s a lot of walking on eggshells with her on this subject.

Large Tunamy boyfriend is the same way except he actually has his doctors orders to keep his food under control. So there is a constant onslaught of delicious but deadly foods being set in front of me and I know in my heart of hearts that if I continue to eat like this down the road if not now it will have a negative consequence on my body. I have enough problems with not feeling well in my soul due to my mental state but I can’t have both my mind and body feeling like crap all the time.

I don’t know how I’ll deal with this situation, but I know I want to feel good, energized and well and if I don’t make an active effort to take better care with what’s put in my body then it’ll be my own fault when something goes wrong.