As sad as this is to admit…I finally just got my cell phone internet access fixed. I’d never had it before, got a phone that was capable of web surfing but it never worked. After an hour on the phone with tech support I can finally *gasp* surf the web on my cell phone!

It’s scary that I’m supposed to be a part of the tech-savy generation…

Going into a new relationship can be complicated. I wish that when entering a new relationship it would be more like buying a brand new home that’s filled to the brim with new furniture – new everything. Instead new relationships are moving into a new house but taking all your old stuff with you. There’s no way to get around doing it…the good, the bad, the ugly vase your great aunt gave you all come along for the relocation.

Dragging along all your old emotional baggage, insecurities and issues tend to add a bit of strain to a new relationship. Things that happened to you in the past can easily dictate your response to what is happening in the present. Shit that had nothing to do with the new person you’re with can wrap it’s hands around the new life you work to build and begin to choke it out. Problems like this have to be kept in check and in perspective.

I honestly have difficulty with this very thing, but I’m working on it. I don’t want to be gun-shy, I don’t want to have pre-concieved notions about how people are. But I do. I just wish there was a bellhop somewhere in my head that I could check my old baggage into and just never come back and get it. I guess the key is learning to carry it without it weighing you down in the here and now.

Anyone who knows me in “real life” knows that I’m a huge stickler for organization. Nothing turns me on more than seeing a room, shelf or closet that’s tidy and symetric. One of my favorite things is when someone who is drowning in clutter asks me to come over and help them get organized. Weird? I know.

I feel more at peace in a place where I know I can find what I’m looking for and my eyes aren’t going bonkers trying to take in my surroundings. I know lots of people love “orgainzed chaos” and can function well in that kind of enviroment…but I can’t. This side of my personality is most apparent at my job. Among other things my position requires me to process large amounts of data and consolodate it into simple and easy to understand reports and graphs as well as accounts payable duties for the entire department.

I deal with A LOT of paper every day. It’s only apparent how much crap crosses my desk when I take a day off because I’ll come back and the inbox is overflowing (and scary)…I think this may be a tatic by my bosses to ensure I don’t take days off *chuckle* I have multiple stacking paper sorters on the desk that will hold all invoices from their reception into the office through the entire payment process (gotta love corporate red tape) to end point of filing away in a clean and organized file drawer that comes complete with a self created self-archiving system. Yep, I’m a nerd.
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