I’m in a link-handin’-out-mood-thing right now…

Legal Guide for Bloggers- Something I think every blogger who’s worth their salt should take a look at. May just keep you from getting your ass in a bind.

RSS to Javascript Converter- Handy if you want to insert an RSS feed into your html pages. Doesn’t require linkbacks either so your RSS will be perdy.

Opt-Out Prescreen-Sick of getting credit card and insurance offers in the mail box? This site will put an end to it.

Freecycle-their site explains it better…just go look.

That ought to keep you busy for a few seconds anyway. Onto other things…

I reckon I should clarify a smidge on my affairs post…he’s not married. I don’t do married guys, it’s just not my bag ;o) Christ, I had a great idea for a post earlier but I’ve been completely zoned out all day so I lost it. Guess ya’ll will have to settle for those links. Sorry. Oh, and this: I bought a new toothbrush today…and it’s fucking hot outside.

Your turn:
What color is your toothbrush?

Mmmkay, I’m off today for the east coast…I’ll return on the 23rd so other than email checking my computer time will be spent for business only. I’ll see ya’ll when I return!

Hasta!

Yesterday afternoon was fairly normal, everyone was working diligently on one thing or another. The computers were humming away as we all were billing or working on the sites. Techno music was blaring from the speakers while the ancient swamp cooler creaked along noisily blasting freezing air into the office. I could hear the air compressor turn on and off in the shop, the phone was ringing off the hook…it was a normal afternoon at the ol’ ranch.

Then the power went off.
Dead silence, computer screens were blank, work was lost, the air shut off, the only sound was the dogs barking.

The entire block went down, there was no water as the pump for the well is electric. My cell phone started ringing off the hook. Everyone wanted to make sure I was aware there was no water. Which…uh…duh…I know. I finally shut the phone off and was seriously thinking about resigning as chief trustee of the wellshare.

Since there was no power and I couldn’t get anything done online I figured now would be a good time to work on other things. In the two hours and fifteen minutes that we had no power I cleaned out my desk, opened the stack of mail that had been collecting in my tray, paid some bills, took the dogs out for a run, pruned my rose bushes and played two games of Uno. And it was nice!

Maybe they should make it a ritual of shutting the power off for two hours a day so that we can get stuff done..

Fair warning, this post is going to be dealing with some adult-ish stuff…if you can’t deal with that then stack your cards and move on ;o)

Affairs…this has been on my mind lately. Don’t ask why, well actually there’s a damn good reason why but I’m not sure I want to go into it all here. (I should really get a private blog) Anyway, the last two days I’ve been thinking about…ah fuckit…

Here’s the deal, I ain’t gonna lie to you…I’ve recently been involved with a wonderful guy. He doesn’t live here but he comes out to vacation often. The whole thing just recently started and it was rather…for lack of a better word…suprising. This particular person is someone who I’ve always admired and yeah had a secret crush on but for various reasons I’ve never pursued it.

Turns out this person felt strongly enough about me to actually pursue it. And dear god I am SO very glad he did. It’s been wonderful, fantastic, overwhelming, surreal, and just flat out finger-lickin’-good. I can’t go into much detail as I know that kids and family members do show up here and I try to keep it clean-ish but for the record the guy knows what he’s doing. Anyway, that’s not the point of all this. The point is that there is someone out there that can transform me…I find myself happier, less inclined to work, and more willing to think of outlandish possibilities. None of those things are the “typical Bug”.

And I find that very dangerous. As I’ve dedicated my entire life to my work and reality…this little awakening has been a bit frightening to me. The fact that one person can make all my usual behavior just vaporize is a sharp wake up call. But I love it…I’m not IN love…let’s be clear about that. There is no grounds for using the l-word at this point really. I guess one could say I’m in lust, which when it all boils down is precisely what it is.

However, I’m fine with that. Sadly enough in order to carry out these tyrst I have to deceive people and I know that’s wrong but for once in my very small existence I don’t care. Then there’s the age thing. I say that lightly as I’ve never been one to classify a person by their age. There are adults that don’t have enough common sense to live properly yet there are kids around that if made to be on their own would do just fine. So age isn’t an issue for me. But, it IS an issue for a lot of folks.

I’m still very young…I’ll only be hitting 20 in August, he’s got a good couple decades on me. Now, before you pass judgment I must point out what my dear friend Mouse told me: “Everyone is quick to laugh or be disgusted until they try it for themselves.” Age has nothing to do with it. If two people want to be together then that should be all that matters. I’ve found that the very fact that he’s much older makes for a more experienced lover and a MUCH better conversationalist. I enjoy being around him both in and out of the bedroom .

Sadly enough the whole situation (age included) is what keeps us from being more public about our relations. I know that my family would flip out…well most of them anyway…there are a few that would just chalk it up to “Bug just being Bug” and move on. His family wouldn’t be too pleased about it either. So I suppose this is all going to just stay tucked away nice and neatly for the rest of our time together. Which is a drag because I’d love nothing more than to be able to share this with everyone I know. Instead I’ve had to resort to sharing it with a bunch of random people on the internet.

What I’m interested to know is this:

Have you ever had an affair?
Have you ever been with someone who’s…well older than you by a long shot?
Got any advice, words of wisdom, stories of your own?

It’d be nice to see that I’m not the only one out there who’s in this lil’ boat…do share